Yes I should have said Saturday instead of Friday for getting back to the blog...days seem to be really flying lately. I will try to be better about that.
This morning was the first Saturday Bootcamp workout. I have to admit that I was a little nervous cause we heard that there would be quite a few people there and there were but everything was fine. Everyone was very supportive and friendly. One of the things that I was the most worried about even back when I was going to IROC was that I felt like people would be looking at me and judging me or making comments. I guess thats due to a number of years of name-calling and just low self-esteem. But I quickly figured out that I had nothing to worry about because everyone at IROC or Bootcamp is there for their thing and are not there to judge other people.
Before starting on this journey I had the mind set that trying to lose weight was a "suffer in silence" kind of thing. It wasnt something that you talked about or that I was necessarily comfortable doing. I had closed those doors and shut those emotions off a long time ago. Upon entering into the Biggest Mooser, I knew a lot of it would be public and it made me very nervous to be honest. I was still uncomfortable with the idea of people knowing things about me that are so personal. BUT....yes theres a but...since starting this and even before, the amount of support that people have showed me has been incredible! It is truly overwhelming...and I will admit that I LOVE it when people stop me to ask how it is going. My husband thinks I am becoming a "ham". NO!!! NOT ME;) I am just fascinated that people want to know about me and care enough to ask. It has almost lifted that burden that I have carried alone for so long...now I have people helping me carry it and it is a liberating, humbling, joyful wondeful feeling. I hope all those people know how much I appreciate them.
Next blog...an ode to my husband
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