Sunday, February 21, 2010

Weekend blues

Yeah, weekends suck! Don't get me wrong, I LOVE my weekends but I cant handle the lack of structure or schedule. Saturdays work out didn't leave me feeling that great either. Shannon said I did great and Lisa said the same but I just wasn't feeling it afterwards like I ususally am. I'm beginning to think that there are some mental challenges connected to weekends for some reason. It's almost like I want to sabotage myself. It's mostly to do with the food part. When I am at school, I have a set schedule that I can stick to and I'm busy inbetween but on weekends, we sleep in and just kind of do whatever ya know? I haven't done too bad this weekend but it's not like during the week. It's starting to mess with my head a little bit too like "Oh I'm not doing as well on the weekends so maybe I should just quit".

Weekends are also when I realize and think about all of the things I have going on which stresses me out. During the week I am so busy that I dont have the time to think about things, then the weekends come and all of the sudden I have this extra time to think about stuff and remember deadlines and homework and meetings etc. etc. All of that makes me not sleep well and leads to stress and I have always been a stress-eater. That sounds like an equation for sabotage if ever I've heard one. AND I'm on vacation this week!!!! It's a whole week of weekends!
Deep breaths, just breathe...I think I am starting to realize why my blood pressure was high.

I am also a person who is more comfortable writing down my feelings and better at expressing them that way too than I am in saying them out loud to a person. I should do that more (say out loud) but I just don't, especially in a room with a number of people. I should put myself out there more like during workouts and chatting afterwards...I should but I don't.

As far as the weekends go, Ben would say (I think) Plan, plan, plan...ok

2 comments:

  1. Yes, plan, plan, plan. And as for expressing feeling you are doing fine on here using this as your medium. Lisa C did it last year and like you didn't express much in person. Her results speak for themselves:)

    Remember why you signed up in the first place, don't ever forget the feeling that propelled you to sign up. Weekends are very hard but when you remember the pain you felt before signing up for this program, the anguish, and negative feelings about yourself, you realize that this means more to you than anything else and everything around you takes on a new light and something like remembering to eat on weekends and eat supportively becomes simplified.

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  2. Thanks Ben...It's nice to know that you are reading this cause I wont say things in person that I will write here. I really appreciate your support;)

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